16th Report

Today, I am struggled by the same question that i have been asking myself for the last few days. Should I take mandarin for the summer seminster or not. It will be easy credit and i will be able to pass my probation but.... it is truly a struggle. Lately, for some reason, I feel dislike by everyone. I wonder is it because of midterm or if everyone's friendship is separating? Although I will admit I feel a little bit sad and lonely but because of the last few weeks without much conversation with everyone, I started thinking "Is this the friendship that i wanted?" I admit that I had alot of fun in the process however, something just doesn't feel too right. For some reason, no matter who I hang out with, I still can't not find the kind of feeling that i used to felt when I hang out with Jose, Yvonne, Dave, Alan, Joseph and Grace. When we used to hang out together, that feeling is so stress free, so easy, it is like there is only a white area in the circle. We didn't have to waste time and energy to think of anything else. It is like even if 天掉下来也没有事的感觉。今天给自己的分数是。。。。。68%

15th Report

Without my realization, I have not wrote my emotion Report for three days. Perhaps lately I really don't have the mood to write anythign for alot of thing around me seem like it is really boring and stupid lately. what people thinks, what people say, what people do, to me lately, some of their actions seem really stupid and i am so sick of it. Do they really think that I am pathetic just because i don't say anything or perhaps i am getting more self centered, cocky and impatient? I should really watch my temper lately. I know to some people i sound kind of cocky lately so therefore i will change myself for the better good... Today I will give myself 40% becuz of my bad temper

13th and 14th Report

Although ppl say there is a good day after the bad day but i have bad bad day tagging from one to another. Yesterday ( although i really kind of don't remember much) I went to pick up Claudia and she keep on complaining about this and tat. today when i thought i will have a better day, I went to try and fill up the gas, My mastercard was decline ( Freaken hell) and then when i was trying to use my Debit card. I just realize my Debit card was expired ( WHY THE FREAKEN HELL WOULD THEY PUT AN EXPIREY DATE ON A FREAKEN DEBIT CARD) and I had no money with me and then Alan tell me that my car is leaking( could my day get anyworst other than me die or something like that). Soooo Today's score will be 35% (TOO UNLUCKY AND FREAKEN PISS OFF) and yesterday was 45%.