16th Report

Today, I am struggled by the same question that i have been asking myself for the last few days. Should I take mandarin for the summer seminster or not. It will be easy credit and i will be able to pass my probation but.... it is truly a struggle. Lately, for some reason, I feel dislike by everyone. I wonder is it because of midterm or if everyone's friendship is separating? Although I will admit I feel a little bit sad and lonely but because of the last few weeks without much conversation with everyone, I started thinking "Is this the friendship that i wanted?" I admit that I had alot of fun in the process however, something just doesn't feel too right. For some reason, no matter who I hang out with, I still can't not find the kind of feeling that i used to felt when I hang out with Jose, Yvonne, Dave, Alan, Joseph and Grace. When we used to hang out together, that feeling is so stress free, so easy, it is like there is only a white area in the circle. We didn't have to waste time and energy to think of anything else. It is like even if 天掉下来也没有事的感觉。今天给自己的分数是。。。。。68%